Wednesday 19 November 2008

When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, D !

I am beginning to find myself. It is a means of self-discovery. It is a road less travelled, and I am not afraid of falling. I could fall, I would be wrong, but I need to have something so valuable. Myself.
I begin to wonder along the way. The multitude of roads beginning to make me believe in all possible directions. One moment, I think I am down and other times I feel lost. But keeping in mind the dawn of realization, the straying of mind is important too. Really... When I feel lonely and helpless, I now try to simply enjoy it and not try to fathom it out. Nothingness is a beautiful state of mind.

The world and its chaos seem a lot less trivial to me! And that's when I feel, free.
I am free. I'm on my way, to become the way I had decided to be. To be, me.
I'm not worried about failure or anxious about what might happen next. It is something I have long left behind. I can not go back. I will not go back.
Each tour that I take, covers along a new thing to think about. The road is never similar.
Its twists and turns and goes upstairs and down. Sometimes it is smooth and other times rough.
But sometimes, my heart beats fast when I think about these things. The adrenaline in my spine shoots high.
But I know, I am a believer. I gradually became entangled in a web. The Web that my mind has created. It is rather complex. I will not drag on it, but I will have to word hard and smart to get out of it, leaving it to rise above the horizon to have a clear vision.
I simply let go and dive into the nothingness that beckons clarity !

Him

He is sunsets by the seashore and long aimless walks and chequered shirts and deep gazes and the smell of cologne so warm and ent...